I Can't Compare

I'll admit. You're flawless,
You were so much better for him, I'm sure of that fact.




Now that all is said and done, I just have to ask:
Do you know the shadow you've created for me?




My face will never see the light of day again.

Living The Life That I Never Had

They said that time heals all wounds,
But they don't tell you how long it takes.


It's been years, and I'm still bleeding internally.




When will time fix me?

Your Blue Eyes Tear Me Apart

Do you remember that one time when you smiled at me and gave me love?
I hesitated but you coaxed me out, made my heart soar like a dove?
I think my demise started right there. It was my own fault.

Because you gave me a love letter yesterday.

But I didn't open it.

I want it to remain a secret forever.

My Faith Is Unwavering

You looked in my eyes with passion, as you spoke the words that said it all.
Now I know we won't ever be the same.


Because now I know, what love is not.

Past The Point of Denial

The day you came into my life, the angels sang. 
The masses rejoiced. 
And I, well, I lived. For the first time.


Now I know, I am not alone.

Not Perfect

This is my house. It's made of two things: cracks, and photographs. 
The cracks are embedded in my heart, and the photographs...
Well, they're of you. They're all I have left.

If You Love Me...

Take me
Or
Leave me


Do not play games
Coaxing my heart out
Of its winter wonderland
Only to abandon it soon thereafter


If you love me
Do not keep me
Simply,
Let me go


Fly away
To retreat back into my icy fortress
And stay there, completely


Utterly
Alone

And Months Slowly Pass By

Today
I will not lie to you
I will not tell you stories
Fables
I will not stand here
And lead you all on
Saying love is real


It isn't




Tomorrow
I will not put on a happy face
Not for you
Not for me
Not for us
I will show my true colors


To you




Yesterday
I was naive
I believed,
Like you
That love existed
I was wrong
I was a fool to believe


That my days were perfect.

I Guess I Got Just What I Wanted

And as I felt the world collapse around me, 
The destruction, and inevitably, the death
The blood-curdling screams of the masses
The crashes of buildings toppling over
The sound of society falling down under our noses
The scent of the newly deceased


I thought, "Now, my sweet, we can be alone."

Why Didn't I Listen?

My silence tried to tell you
What I never had the words to say
It screamed and wailed and
You ignored it, shunned me


My silence tried to love you
Like I never could find the ways to do
It craved your warmth and
You never felt it, never held me


My silence tried to warn you
That soon I was to leave
It pushed and prodded and
You pushed back, pushed me away


Your silence seemed to tell me
Everything I feared
It muttered every syllable as loneliness neared
You always said it, told me from the start

The Confusion Has Just Begun

Looking in the mirror
She sees hell
Darkness
Dullness
Someone that need not exist
Someone that is inferior


I want to erase myself
I want to destroy myself
Do what it seems they want
They're only making it worse
And they don't see
What they're rapidly doing to me

Just Another Ghost In My Haunted House

Don't listen to them
Their lies and deceit
They make you believe
You're some kind of freak


They drug you up
And lock you in
They let you think
Your thoughts are sins


You tell them to stop
But they want more
And they treat you as if
You're some kind of chore


You tell them you're fine
But they tell you you're not
They call you worthless
"A downright slut"


But I believe you
Cos the voices inside
They're evil
And make you hide


Still they watch over you
To "keep you safe"
But don't realise
Her smile is fake


She's slowly,
But surely
Becoming yet another
One of your ghosts.

There's No Such Thing As Too Young

Your smile was the first time I've seen love,

And the last I'll ever need.

Thank you.

My Eyes Can't Believe What They Have Seen

I remember these words
Whispered to me
During slippery wet fusion
My body screaming loud
Craving more of this
A bond so intimate
'Twas nearly intangible
And so I was a fool to believe


I remember these words
Spoken to me
During late night calls
Accompanied by sweet melodies
Of your heavenly voice
[Such velvet-like bliss]
And our hearts slowly breaking
(Mine especially)


I remember these words
Read to me
During a supposed getaway
My tears hit pavement
Like sharp daggers
Accompanied by drops of scarlet
But you will never know
How important memories are


Or how much you
hurt me,
Because I'm fine

I Feel So Alive (Not.)

Used, that's what I am. 
That's what I'll always be. 
A toy to use and throw away when you're done.
I want to go crazy, 
I want to destroy myself. 
I want to make sure 
I never leave my heart for anyone else to take. 
It can't take it. 
I can't take it.
I will be doing drugs this summer. 
Coke, crack, smack, anything 
To get me high and 
I'll keep doing them 
So I never have to be dropped down low again. 
Yes, I'll be stupid. 
Yes, I'll be ruined. 
That's just what I want right now.
I want to get angry, 
I want to get crazy. 
I want to get out of my own head. 
I want to get out. 
I want to get away. 
Away from him, 
Away from myself 
And this life I have. 
I want to do something stupid again. 


I want to feel alive again.