Sunday, May 8, 2011

I Feel So Alive (Not.)


Used, that's what I am. 
That's what I'll always be. 
A toy to use and throw away when you're done.
I want to go crazy, 
I want to destroy myself. 
I want to make sure 
I never leave my heart for anyone else to take. 
It can't take it. 
I can't take it.
I will be doing drugs this summer. 
Coke, crack, smack, anything 
To get me high and 
I'll keep doing them 
So I never have to be dropped down low again. 
Yes, I'll be stupid. 
Yes, I'll be ruined. 
That's just what I want right now.
I want to get angry, 
I want to get crazy. 
I want to get out of my own head. 
I want to get out. 
I want to get away. 
Away from him, 
Away from myself 
And this life I have. 
I want to do something stupid again. 


I want to feel alive again.

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