A Change Of Pace

This post will be different from others, and yet...it will be exactly the same.


To Those of You That Read This:


My thoughts have become scattered lately
I cannot focus and
I cannot think,
And yet, my mind is so incredibly active
I yearn for something more
More than this, 
Than these people with their constant emotions
That constantly change
However, aren't my emotions constantly changing as well?
I think I want something
But the next I don't
I want to connect with someone
Not on a physical level, but on a mental one
I'm intrigued by human interaction.
I want more of it, like an insatiable thirst
But once I get it, I don't want it anymore
People have far too many emotions for me. 
They're far too troublesome and I don't want to get involved.


I want to do something, anything
But I feel helpless
Like I'm stuck in this rut, 
And no one can get me out
I want to get out
But I don't know the way
I thought I got out
But I only traveled in circles
And I'm back where I started
I'm tired of this, I want a change
I need to change
Something
Anything
Everything
I don't know what to do
I'm getting disconnected
I need to stay,
I need to do something
But what?




I need you.