There's Something Wrong With Me, Chemically.

There is something wrong with me
I was born at the wrong time
In the wrong house
Accused of the wrong crime

I was marching to the wrong drum
In the wrong line
With the wrong people
And the wrong sign

I have the wrong friends
All the wrong ties
The wrong thoughts
And they're all lies

I'm in the wrong place
On the wrong side
In the wrong cell
I had the wrong guide

Now I'm in the wrong grave
And they have won
It's all said,
And it's all done.


This path I was on
It was too long
And now I know it's all
Wrong.

I Miss Your Smile...

My body is aching,
Aching, and waiting
Yearning for the day
I get to be in your arms

My blood runs cold
Until the day
I am able to feel
Your loving touch

My eyes grow tired
They wish to gaze upon
Actual flesh,
Actual perfection

My lips grow hopeful
Wishing so desperately
To caress each and every inch
Of your warm skin

My fingertips grow restless
Fidgeting without purpose
They yearn to touch you
To feel you

Can you feel that,
See that?
That’s me, without you.
A mess.

This is the Way My Heart Crumbles.

I love you.

But those are the three words,

Those eight letters

That are sung

When you’re sleeping

They are spoken

But only when you can’t hear them

And they are true

Only when you can’t feel them

This is how it is,

And this is how it will remain

And you will never,

Ever know.

Because

If you did,

You would be lost to me

Forever.

His Home, Not Mine. Geez.

There he is

Sitting alone in a corner

His home

The voices pillaging

His brain, his very being

Whispers transform

Into screaming

Constant dragging of nails

On that imaginary chalkboard

Everything is wrong

Every.

Single.

Thing.

He does.

Tears sting his eyes

Why is he here if all he does,

Is wrong?

Suicide...

Purging the world of his existence

The thought runs through his mind

A true conundrum

Is it the answer?

Possibly

But could he get it right?

No...

I suppose

The only thing left to do

Is to stay here

In his corner

His home

You Bring Me to Life

Sometimes

I tend to daydream

To imagine

My dream

My heaven

Right there in front of me

Embracing you

Being in your arms

Running my fingers across your skin

Occasionally pinching myself

Just to make sure

To double check

That the angel in front of me

This gift to the universe

And to myself

Is real

Go

This thing

Our.....

Us

It's something I've never experienced

Unlike anything I've ever known

You are something

You know that?

Something that can either

Make me

Or

Break me

With

Just

One

Word

Go.

My Rawr

My close friend, my best friend,
Once a lover, once a joy filler
Now a stranger, now a pain giver

Why?
Why are you back again?
Why did you leave?
Why are you here again?
Why me?
Why are you trying?
Why did you move only to come back after so long?
Why must you lie?
Why must you hurt me?
Why must I hurt you?
Why must we be in pain?
Why must this be so difficult?

Why does this seem so wrong?

Why does it feel so right?

I ask myself so many whys,
But for some reason, one stands out,

Now you are back, what should I feel?...

The Cry of the Open Heart Surgeon

This writer, she says it's simple. Says all you have to do is sit down at a desk, get a pen and paper ready
And unlock parts of your heart never before explored.
She says only then can you make it big.

But,

What are you supposed to do if you no longer have possession of your own heart

Because you've chosen to give it away?

I'm Pretty Sure It's Not Sexually Transmitted.

I'm sorry to be the one to tell you, but..

You've got a terrible case of being over there. I asked several specialists about your situation. They fear, in your case, it's deadly.

They say the only cure, is being over here.

With me.

You Told Me to Write from Your Heart. I Did.

I can't see you or hear you, but I'd like to.

I can't feel you, but I know you're there.

You're in my heart, in my life.

You are my life.

I'm not letting you go now,

And I never will.

Have faith in me.

Untouchable?

Don't you hate it
When you want something so much
And you can't have it?
When it's right there,
But you can't touch it?
When you can hear it,
But can't see it?
Or see it
But can't feel it?
I've heard people go mad
Trying to find love
But what happens when you've found it,
But can't have it
There with you?

You Better Be a Fucking Trilogy.

I know
You have your days
Where you are sad
Where you are down
But I still want to be
That person
That girl
You tell everything to
All your feelings
All your thoughts
I want to know
Everything about you
Who you are
What makes you tick?
You intrigue me
My darling
My love
And I just want
To be able
To read you
Like a book

You And Your Perfect Self....

Most nights
I can't sleep
Most days,
I can't think
I can't...
Be
Without a reminder of you
And your feelings for me


A stuffed toy
On my pillow
A quote of yours
Written on my chest
Your name
Doodled on my wrist
It gets me by
It makes me forget
That you can't hold me
When I need your warmth
Or kiss me
When I need your love
Or make love to me
When I need your flesh
Or fall asleep next to me
When I need your presence


But mainly, 
The fact that I trust you
And know these feelings are real
That you won't kick me 
When I'm down
That you won't toss me aside when all I do
Is give you my love
That you won't step on me
Like the dirt beneath your feet.
That this love....
Is mutual.
And so.....
You and your perfect eyes


Keep me alive.

Just Like Sour Patch Kids

Often times
Life punches us in the face
With a force
That literally
Knocks us on our asses


But then
Feeling bad,
Life will kiss it better.
Apologize for
Inconveniences


Only to
Smile innocently
And happily
Slice off
Our dicks 

I'm Sorry I Am

Lately,
I've realized more and more
That I am a failure
Apparently
Though I thought I was,
I am not good enough
Not for my family
Not for my friends
My tutors
My lover?


I am not good enough
I never have been
And apparently,
Despite how hard I try
I will never be good enough
For you.

Just So You Know...

With each new spectacle

Each new piece of you

(Piece of perfect)

I see,

Your neck

Your hands

Your chest

Your stomach

Makes me fall

Even harder

For you <3