I Think I Miss You

I often look back on them fondly, those moments between us. We had fallen asleep together, and I had the most peaceful dreams I will ever have.

The Cold Causes Bitterness

I've decided,
I'm going to be beautiful
I'm going to be different
I'm going to change


I'll be better than you, better than you'll ever be
I'll be better than what you made me, 
And I'll do it all


All without you.

A Spark of Something Old

This place, the one right here. Where I am. It's lonely, desolate. 
It's missing something.


You

And She Tastes Like Paradise

We had done this before, she and I. We had felt the sweet velvet of one another's lips upon our own. The feel of our hands against the other's flesh. Yet, this was different. There was another, a drop of pestilence in my plans. I had to think on my feet, formulate new ones.

That room, yes, the one we met in before. Again, with another. Except, my lips did not brush against hers, as they wanted. My tongue had not yet tasted the sweetness that is my darling girl. Mea puella. I had not discovered the lust that was looming over both of our heads.

I heaved a great sigh and stood up, my darling girl and the pest still on the floor. I kicked off my flats, as I run better without them. My jacket was slipping off and yet I did not care. I sprinted into that room, the one lined with lush blue carpet. I rolled around, loving the familiarity of it, and waited. Waited for her, possibly them, to follow. They came, as suspected, and they walked to the front of the peaceful little room. She sat in the position we both knew so well, and gave me a knowing smile. She knew my plan, I expected, but I didn't mind.

The pest sat beside her. Could she not tell when she was not needed? Could she not tell that she needed to go, to turn her head for at least a few moments? She knew of my feelings for the sweet girl long before now, so why stay? Why intrude? She stood and walked about, and I took the opportunity to close the distance between us. I held her close, her head just barely resting on my breasts. I hugged her tightly, and she squeezed my side, causing my body to tremble. She did it again, seemingly harder, and I loved each moment. I loved her hands on me, as I always have, as I suspect I always will.

The pest turned around, and we separated as if we were ill at the thought of being in such close proximity. I walked away once more, to the focal point of the room, where a quaint little nativity scene was set up. The other sat beside my sweet girl, not fully paying attention, for she did not catch the longing glances the two of us shared. She was curled up the the chair, her legs draped over its wooden arms. It's as if she knew how crazy she drove me, how her legs being so high up made my mind wander, how delicious her body is to me.

I decided it was time to make my move. I walked over to mea puella once again, and began untying her shoe. But what would I do with it then, I asked myself. Ah, the time will come soon enough, I eased. She questioned me, and I assured her I was not up to anything. The shoe came off easily enough, and I took flight, away from the pest, away from the prying eyes of the security cameras, the janitors. To a spot we could be alone, for the first time that day. I tossed her shoe aside, a few feet from where I stood in wait. She followed, as I hoped she would. Shoe in hand, she walked over to me, behind the frosted glass wall, and stared at me.

I gazed into her eyes as I have never done so before. And part of me thinks she took notice of that, for she verbally noted my aesthetic appeal.

She bent down to put her shoe back on, but I protested, and slid down against the wall, her feet now between my legs. I put the foot in question directly between my thighs and began to tie them. "Faster, slut," she commanded, "Hurry the fuck up." Does she know how much I enjoy that? I finished, and gazed up at her upon my completion. The look we shared, I had never felt like that before. Not with her, nor any other female. My hands, as if moving on their own accord, traveled up her warm flesh. Her calf, then her delicious thigh. Upwards, it urged, but I declined, thinking it was not the right venue for such an act.

Her eyes told me she enjoyed my touch, despite the fact that she wanted more. My fingers slid along her inner thigh, and she bent down, inching her face closer to my own. With our eyes locked, she quickly but gently brushed her lips against my own. Her lips felt as soft as ever, like satin. I yearned for more, to pull her down to me and kiss her with the passion that was surging throughout my body. Thus, I would be lying if I told you I had not wished for this day to happen. The day where I would finally get to taste her lips once more.

The kiss, I thought, was laced with regret. One should not covet that which does not belong to you.

Such sweet fruit, I believe, should be best left in paradise.

One Year and You're Still In My Heart

I just wish I still made you as nervous as you make me.
I just wish I made your heart race, and the sound of my voice made you blush.


I just wish we were still together.

I Have Wronged My Saviour

Lust holds me in its warm embrace
As passion and affection call my name
Where to go, what to do?
The devil and the angel, once living in sweet harmony
Now two demons joyfully wreaking havoc
Tearing me clear in two


Lust caresses me with its strong hands,
Love gently pushing through my hair
Joining adoration in the choir,
Calling me, urging me to come home
To return to my one and only,
Hoping I never stray from the path of light


Lust whisks me away, stealing me from my path
Such selfishness begins to show,
And its hands grip my throat,
Squeezing me of bittersweet prudence
And finally, I see
He's here, who I've been seeking


My angel, my prince
My one darling love
Both love and lust embodied
Can it be so?
May I really have both,
All to my own?


He pulls me from Lusts' grasp
And holds me in a passionate embrace
His lips find my own,
Kissing me with sweet-poison lips
For we both know, as the concoction takes its toll
That I have done wrong

A Name Without A Poem

There are pictures on my computer I can't bear to look at, yet can't bear to delete.

There are so many songs I can't bear to listen to, yet they're all I want.

There are so many words I can't bear to say, but they're all you hear.

There are so many places I can't bear to visit, but they're where my heart is.

There is a pair of eyes that belong to you, warm, strong arms that are your own

That I can never look into, or be wrapped up in ever again.

Blue Eyes

Blue Eyes you look so lonely over there

I have to say it’s hard not to stare

It’s hard to believe inside there’s such sorrow

And the possibility there will not be tomorrow

There are mysteries there I would very much like to solve

There were sins committed that have no absolve

I’d like to bring us together,

Back to the way things were

I think I could fix this,

I ask you just give me time for this to occur

Heaven is nothing without me in your arms

Without you, there’s no protection to keep me from harm

It’s not real, Blue Eyes, and it’s impossible to tell

The difference between real and faerie-tale

I wish I could hold you by your warm, loving hands

And pretend that we can be, as much as two lovers can

But I’d be lying, oh how I would lie

We can’t be, we’re not real

Not you, nor I

We can’t make it through this, we shant even try

Still, I’d travel to the edge of the world for you

I’d clear away darkness and shine Heaven’s light on you

It would be bright and warm,

But I failed you, and you left me torn

I still love you, Blue Eyes, though it pains me to admit

That I could still love a cretin, a Bloody Little Twit

We failed, and the darkness that remained

Was cleared not by me,

Oh, no, not me

But by another you had gained

And now you’re back,

But we’re still so far away

For I know now,

Much to my dismay

She’ll carry the torch for you, dearest Blue Eyes

She’ll be the one to lead you to the light

Dearest Blue Eyes, I won’t be alright

Dearest, I'm So Sorry

When I look back on us, I realise that I was never what you wanted. I was just there. And you, you were just bored.

"He" - An Ode To Catullus, From His Darling Clodia

My dearest he
He as in you
You as in we
We as in us
Him, not at all blind to how I feel
But envious of a treasure now gone


I shall do anything for that love,
That gold I possess
Hearing his words, all about me
It brightens my day
His words, a labyrinth to the rest
For only I know the way,
The way to his heart


My darling he
He as in you
You, with me
With my sparrow now gone
There is nothing in your way
There is just he
He as in you
You as in we


You, 
Me,
We,
Us.

We Have Got To Get This Right

I haven't had an easy life, so excuse me
Love can't be this easy
Where's the screaming and the yelling?
The cursing and the heartache?
Love isn't this easy
Yet it's so easy with you?
I'm not scared, not like I used to be
But I'm afraid I must warn you
I'm a monster, and I will destroy us.

Closer Yet Farther Away

I've moved on
Right?
I'm in love
That, I know
But there's this feeling
Nagging me
Memories of you
Sad, sweet memories of you
Days where I made you happy
Days where you loved me
Days that are no more


Now you've wrecked me
Doomed me to suspect that
He will hurt me
The way you stabbed my heart
After making me believe
That you still loved me
But you lied to me
Over and over
And now you're lying to yourself
Because we're dead and gone


Now I'm over you
And yet,
You're here
In my head
And yet,
Never in my heart
No, my love,
Never
Ever
Again.


Goodbye.

Forever Mine

I saw an angel last night

She was by the side of the road

Broken, bleeding

She had fallen

And the monsters

Those cruel beasts

They caught up to her

Tore her apart

And left her there

For me to find

I came to her

Took her home

Touched her bloody back

Where wings had once rested

I kissed her wounds

Determined to fix her

This abandoned misfit

However

Not all the monsters left

She followed the angel

With her snake-like tongue

Her razor sharp claws 

Her poisonous fangs

She changed her

Made the angel her own

Made the angel stray

I tried to save her

Help her kill her demon

Then hide the body

She was my angel, 

Not the monsters'

Forever Mine

'Till death do us part

I Don't Feel You Here Anymore

All this time you've had me waiting, kept me guessing.


I just thought I'd let you know, I won't be waiting anymore.

Sad, Lonely Brown Portals to His Soul

I wish I could be the light that brightens your smile
But you never bothered to stay more than a while
People always write about green eyes or blue 
But I don't think that would properly portray you
You, my sad, sweet dear
So filled with loneliness and somehow, fear
I tried to be your saviour,
The one you could depend
But I failed you,
And brought about our tragic end


Now I'm haunted with the love that wasn't meant for me
Just hoping and waiting for the day my hurt will be set free
I can see you've moved on, and left me behind
Searching and hoping for your next greatest find
You, a sad, sorry lot
Such a heartless wretch, I hope you slowly rot
You never once deserved me
I'm done with this pain
Bittersweet memories of you
Never to be thought of again.

True Colours Shine Through

Everywhere I go I think of you. I can't escape you, like you escaped me. Now I'm left with the broken version of me you promised to fix. The broken girl you created. And you're left the exact same way I found you. Like I was when you broke me. Angry, and alone.


Now, I've escaped. But, have you?

Past Lives Merge Into the Now

Kindred spirits
Bounded by fate
Destined to meet
To be one
If only for a moment
Now my sweet
Don't let my moment end

A Peacock Amongst Ravens

The first scar happened when I fell off that ledge at an early age,
The second, well, that was from an old friend who decided to take a few swings at me,
The third, well, that was from you, because you hurt me even more than my first love, it happened when you told me you loved me.
Each time I think these scars healed, I open them up again. I don't know the how or the why, but it happens. And I'm still hurting. I'm still not over you. I'm not even sure I'd like to be.


All I know is, these scars are from you, and they're still bleeding. And I can't fix it. I don't want to fix it. 


Please fix me.

If Eyes Could Speak, One Look Would Say It All

If you really wanted me, you'd cross oceans for me. If I really wanted you, I wouldn't stop in the middle of a lake and wonder, "Are you even worth it?"


And then I realise, I'd cross oceans for you. It's you who doesn't want me. And that's my fault. I'm not important enough to care about.

Post Midnight Writings of a Hopelessly Romantic Insomniac

I need you to understand something. This is for you. I know you’ll never understand why or how, but you don’t need to.

I need you to understand that I love you. And it’s an all-consuming love. A longing love. A love so intense and amazing that even Romeo and Juliet would never understand.
I need you to understand that I need you. I need you like Aladdin needed Jasmine, like a crippled man needs his cane. I need you like a fish needs water.
I need you to understand that I want you. I want you more than an addict wants their fix, I want you more than you will ever realize and that kills me.
I need you to understand that, like you, I am alone. Never to find the one person I am destined to be with.
I need you to understand, that I am me. And you are you. And no matter how much I want you to understand, I know that you won’t.

Unrequited Love Keeps All Close Inside

You were stuck in pictures, while time passed me by in film. Time goes by, and yet, we're stuck here. You, and I. In different worlds, never to meet, but always to be left alone.

No One Loves You Like I Do

There comes a time when I must say how I feel.
There comes a time when I need to stop watching you run around like a child at a carnival on the pier, getting pushed about and stepped on. 
There comes a time when you will get sick of it, and never want to return to that pier. The one where we first met.
There comes a time when I will realise you're never going to come back to that pier, though I've waited here for you since that day.
There comes a time when you will give up all hope of things going well for you.


That's the time when I will be here for you, and tell you something we've both known since we met on that pier so very long ago.


There's a time where we will love. When the world ends.

State of Emotional Delirium

Did I understand correctly? Is it that you once wanted me as I wanted you? Or is it that my foolish heart fluttered to life far too quickly to comprehend the events occurring right before my eyes? Either way, you awakened something in me. Something that hasn’t been awake since...Him. And now it’s gone. A storm that came in, destroyed everything in its wake, and departed twice as quickly.

And I still love you.

Chest To Chest, How Close I Want To Be To You

Who are you? Because I know who I am. But I don’t think you know who I am. I am me. I am just another being who breathes the air you choose to share with me, who walks on the very ground that you yourself have once walked on, who believes that things can work out even when you tell me they can’t. Most importantly, I am a being who doesn’t need drugs as their medicine, just a simple fix.

And that fix is you.

You Say That Love Is Blind, So Why Didn't You Miss?

There's something there that wasn't there before. I think you feel it too. It's warm, and smooth, and tastes like iron.


It's the tears of the heart that you stabbed so many times in the past.

I Should Tell You...

I'm ashamed for what I said to you. I'm ashamed that I had to say it. Did I even need to say it? You tried to ruin my life, you tried to ruin me. So I ruined you. And boy, do I hope it ruined you as much as you ruined me.

I Want You Here. With Me. Forever.

Words, you're leaving me. Please stay. I need you. I need you to help me. I know you're there, but why can't I reach you? I need to say what I mean, because I don't know if I mean what I say. I need to know what I say, because I don't know if I say what I know.


All I know is, I need you.

I'm Haunted By The Kiss You Should Have Never Given Me

The day you realised you didn't love me anymore, was the day I realised it was never love to begin with.


We can all play pretend sometimes.

A Change Of Pace

This post will be different from others, and yet...it will be exactly the same.


To Those of You That Read This:


My thoughts have become scattered lately
I cannot focus and
I cannot think,
And yet, my mind is so incredibly active
I yearn for something more
More than this, 
Than these people with their constant emotions
That constantly change
However, aren't my emotions constantly changing as well?
I think I want something
But the next I don't
I want to connect with someone
Not on a physical level, but on a mental one
I'm intrigued by human interaction.
I want more of it, like an insatiable thirst
But once I get it, I don't want it anymore
People have far too many emotions for me. 
They're far too troublesome and I don't want to get involved.


I want to do something, anything
But I feel helpless
Like I'm stuck in this rut, 
And no one can get me out
I want to get out
But I don't know the way
I thought I got out
But I only traveled in circles
And I'm back where I started
I'm tired of this, I want a change
I need to change
Something
Anything
Everything
I don't know what to do
I'm getting disconnected
I need to stay,
I need to do something
But what?




I need you.

Neko, Neko, Nya?

You had my heart
You kept it close
I hesitated,
You tore it apart
I felt the sting
You laughed at me
I was betrayed
And then set free
Now I only have
One thing to ask
And that, my dear,
Is "Why are you back?"

The Death of Beauty

Alone
In this room
I see...rivers
Rain
Endless rubies of sweet crimson
Are they mine?
I see...people
Endless people
Cold people
Lonely people
I feel...cold
Is it cold?
Everything is slowly turning to ice.
This room
These people
I fear they will be


The death of me.

Calling All Cars

I've become another victim
And I admit, it's my fault


But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.




Thank you for killing me.

Why Would I Deserve Love?

I'm not even worth it.
Somehow, I think, you knew that
All along.

Suck It.

And even though I've moved on,
Found someone who treats me right
(Better than you)
Keeps things simple
Answers my questions
Would never ignore me
And doesn't crush my heart


I can't help but miss your insanity.

Stop, Don't Touch Me There

Isn't it funny,
How one small drop of water
A tear, even
Can drown us?
And bring us spiraling down,
Into the watery abyss.

Lord Orbelisk

In all honesty, I don't mind the silence. As long as it's with you.


Because as long as I'm with you, everything's perfect.

Everything I Ever Wanted

I once had a dream
You were there
And so were you
And I was there
And so were we
And he was there
But she was not


I mean,
She was there
But yet,
Not
It was her dream
And mine
But not his
But he was in it?


This dream,
It had no one in it
And yet everyone was there
Everyone that mattered
Everyone she wanted
She had him there
For she cannot be without him


And yet, he is without her
And she is dying inside
While he goes about his life
Same as always
And she will never
Ever
Be the same.

I Can't Compare

I'll admit. You're flawless,
You were so much better for him, I'm sure of that fact.




Now that all is said and done, I just have to ask:
Do you know the shadow you've created for me?




My face will never see the light of day again.

Living The Life That I Never Had

They said that time heals all wounds,
But they don't tell you how long it takes.


It's been years, and I'm still bleeding internally.




When will time fix me?

Your Blue Eyes Tear Me Apart

Do you remember that one time when you smiled at me and gave me love?
I hesitated but you coaxed me out, made my heart soar like a dove?
I think my demise started right there. It was my own fault.

Because you gave me a love letter yesterday.

But I didn't open it.

I want it to remain a secret forever.

My Faith Is Unwavering

You looked in my eyes with passion, as you spoke the words that said it all.
Now I know we won't ever be the same.


Because now I know, what love is not.

Past The Point of Denial

The day you came into my life, the angels sang. 
The masses rejoiced. 
And I, well, I lived. For the first time.


Now I know, I am not alone.

Not Perfect

This is my house. It's made of two things: cracks, and photographs. 
The cracks are embedded in my heart, and the photographs...
Well, they're of you. They're all I have left.

If You Love Me...

Take me
Or
Leave me


Do not play games
Coaxing my heart out
Of its winter wonderland
Only to abandon it soon thereafter


If you love me
Do not keep me
Simply,
Let me go


Fly away
To retreat back into my icy fortress
And stay there, completely


Utterly
Alone

And Months Slowly Pass By

Today
I will not lie to you
I will not tell you stories
Fables
I will not stand here
And lead you all on
Saying love is real


It isn't




Tomorrow
I will not put on a happy face
Not for you
Not for me
Not for us
I will show my true colors


To you




Yesterday
I was naive
I believed,
Like you
That love existed
I was wrong
I was a fool to believe


That my days were perfect.

I Guess I Got Just What I Wanted

And as I felt the world collapse around me, 
The destruction, and inevitably, the death
The blood-curdling screams of the masses
The crashes of buildings toppling over
The sound of society falling down under our noses
The scent of the newly deceased


I thought, "Now, my sweet, we can be alone."

Why Didn't I Listen?

My silence tried to tell you
What I never had the words to say
It screamed and wailed and
You ignored it, shunned me


My silence tried to love you
Like I never could find the ways to do
It craved your warmth and
You never felt it, never held me


My silence tried to warn you
That soon I was to leave
It pushed and prodded and
You pushed back, pushed me away


Your silence seemed to tell me
Everything I feared
It muttered every syllable as loneliness neared
You always said it, told me from the start

The Confusion Has Just Begun

Looking in the mirror
She sees hell
Darkness
Dullness
Someone that need not exist
Someone that is inferior


I want to erase myself
I want to destroy myself
Do what it seems they want
They're only making it worse
And they don't see
What they're rapidly doing to me

Just Another Ghost In My Haunted House

Don't listen to them
Their lies and deceit
They make you believe
You're some kind of freak


They drug you up
And lock you in
They let you think
Your thoughts are sins


You tell them to stop
But they want more
And they treat you as if
You're some kind of chore


You tell them you're fine
But they tell you you're not
They call you worthless
"A downright slut"


But I believe you
Cos the voices inside
They're evil
And make you hide


Still they watch over you
To "keep you safe"
But don't realise
Her smile is fake


She's slowly,
But surely
Becoming yet another
One of your ghosts.

There's No Such Thing As Too Young

Your smile was the first time I've seen love,

And the last I'll ever need.

Thank you.

My Eyes Can't Believe What They Have Seen

I remember these words
Whispered to me
During slippery wet fusion
My body screaming loud
Craving more of this
A bond so intimate
'Twas nearly intangible
And so I was a fool to believe


I remember these words
Spoken to me
During late night calls
Accompanied by sweet melodies
Of your heavenly voice
[Such velvet-like bliss]
And our hearts slowly breaking
(Mine especially)


I remember these words
Read to me
During a supposed getaway
My tears hit pavement
Like sharp daggers
Accompanied by drops of scarlet
But you will never know
How important memories are


Or how much you
hurt me,
Because I'm fine

I Feel So Alive (Not.)

Used, that's what I am. 
That's what I'll always be. 
A toy to use and throw away when you're done.
I want to go crazy, 
I want to destroy myself. 
I want to make sure 
I never leave my heart for anyone else to take. 
It can't take it. 
I can't take it.
I will be doing drugs this summer. 
Coke, crack, smack, anything 
To get me high and 
I'll keep doing them 
So I never have to be dropped down low again. 
Yes, I'll be stupid. 
Yes, I'll be ruined. 
That's just what I want right now.
I want to get angry, 
I want to get crazy. 
I want to get out of my own head. 
I want to get out. 
I want to get away. 
Away from him, 
Away from myself 
And this life I have. 
I want to do something stupid again. 


I want to feel alive again.

Personal Update - Poem Form (I Know It Doesn't Matter, Hush.)

I've been dealing with a bit of a crisis
And, I wanted to tell you
You're the last one I want to see
The last voice I want to hear
Before I'm lost to myself forever
For you are my past, my present, and my future
Though you are not aware,
I still love you
And I can't help but hurt each time I realise..
You're not mine
Not any longer


I want you, only you
And, I wanted to tell you
Your future is the one I want
Entwined with mine
I crave your love and attention
Your approval and desire
I want you,
Your warm embrace
Your sweet kiss
And I realise
You are the most intangible thing
To me.


Baby, please kill me.

No Heart, Just Skin

Waking up in my room,

Your face is the first thing I see,

Your voice is the first thing I hear,

My heart is the first thing that breaks;

And all I can think is

Why?

Why did I waste my time?

More importantly,

Why did YOU waste my time?

Why did you lie to me,

And tell me you still wanted me,

When I could see,

I was slowly losing you?



Someone once told me,

That they loved me

So incredibly much,

That they would do anything

Just to get to me,

But since then,

That very same person

Has pushed me away,

And inevitably,

Never once

Looked back

As they



Left.

Ice Is My Destiny

Ice wind

Slithers frigid air along her skin

Frost air

Nips and bites at her ankles,

Prodding her

She must get out,

She hurries,

Stops

She shivers,

Stumbles,

Falls

Down,

Deeper

Into a spiraling abyss

Until finally

She’s lost

Gone forever

Never to return

To her once warm and accepting

Heaven

Please, Don't Leave

There is no future

There is no past

Only you

Only me

Only this

Here

There

There’s only us

Only this

Only love

So take me,

Hold me close

And stay in the now

Stay here

With me

Forget the past,

Forget the world

Forget everything

But me

But this

In A Way, Disappointment Will Kill Me.

I’m not scared of

Never meeting you

I’m scared of having met you,

And letting you

In

I’m not scared of

Never meeting you

I’m scared of having met you,

And seeing you walk

Away

I’m not scared of

Never meeting you

I’m scared of having met you,

And watching your face in

Disappointment

I’m not scared of

Never meeting you

I’m scared of having met you

And seeing you react how I know you

Will

I’m not scared of

Never meeting you

I’m scared of having met you,

And catching sight of looks that can

Kill

I’m not scared of

Never meeting you

I’m scared of having met you,

And seeing you hate

Me.

They're Gonna Need Two Bodybags

I carry your heart with me,
As you carry mine with you
Where I go, you go
And vice versa
And what I do
Is done with you in mind
There is no need
No want greater
Than the want and need for you
Here,
With me.

I carry your heart with me,
As you carry mine with you.

My Silent Screams

My silence tried to tell you

Those words you never heard

It screamed that I'm sorry

But those whispers so hard to hear

They said, I will be the one

To hold you dear and keep you safe

From yourself.

The Cry of the Desperate Loli

Sometimes I feel the weight of the world;
and its so heavy that its bringing me down.

If every issue were a drop of water,
it'd form a sea, and I'm beginning to drown.

Sometimes I feel the weight of the world; 

and it builds up inside me, crushing me somehow.

From inside me, I feel the pressure build;

Physically and emotionally killing me now.

Sometimes I feel the weight of the world;

it disables me, keeps me from being.

And when I finally get the strength to look around,

I realise that what I'm seeing...

Is me, carrying it alone.

Midnight

Heart beating
start to sweat
close your eyes
try to forget
you've been here
three times before
but still you never
lock the door.

Pulse racing
cheeks warm
she flashes in
like a thunderstorm
then gone again
you mope in the rain
and hope she rolls
around again.

Breath ceasing
when you kiss
no ignorance
but lots of bliss
you know you've walked
this road before
but still you never
lock the door.

Ears ringing
judgement sways
you wonder how long
she will stay.
You hope if you
hold on tight
she'll stay with you
just one more night.

Voice catching
words fade
you cant find love
try as you may
you know you deserve
so much more
but still you never
lock the door.

I'm Past The Point of Reality

This isn’t me missing you.

This isn’t me wishing you were here.

This isn’t me hoping for love.

This isn’t me asking for approval.

This isn’t me craving your attention.

This isn’t me desiring you,

Because I do not know what you want.

Is it me?

Or are you going to toss me aside,

And prove them all right?

This isn’t me shedding my tears for you.

This isn’t me longing for you.

This isn’t me falling further for you.

This is me cursing them for being right.

 But

This isn’t me.